Hey Family!
You are probably getting a phone call from President right now but this last week sure has been the curve balls of all curve balls from the Lord. I debated emailing you all this week but I think this is all better coming from me now and preparing you all for what is about to happen. Mostly I am still trying to prepare myself for what is about to happen. Last week I had called President Clayton because every time I tried to get out into the area or push through the pain, I got sicker. In the last week, I have had really bad cold and horrible stomach flu. President mentioned that maybe going home for a couple weeks was the best option to get me back on my feet and I didn't want to hear it. It was the last thing that I wanted to do. Then I decided to pray with an open heart to see what the Lord really wanted for me last Tuesday and I could start to feel that I needed to go home. I asked Him Tuesday morning if I needed to go home and I felt overwhelming peace. Then that night Sister Pelfrey got horrible stomach flu as well and in between throwing up she got called that she was getting transferred. Not only that but that she was completely getting taken out of the Mormon Battalion Historic Site for the transfer as well. We both went into shock and then I realized that I would be the only one that would know the area. The next morning, I was a little loopy from the migraine medication and I got my new companion Sister Tardiff who had just spent a transfer out of the Battalion as well and was coming back. I was so confused. I thought that the Lord had told me that I needed to go home but then He gave me a new companion to train into my area. So even though I felt awful that day, I pushed through it and we spent the whole day catching her up to speed and went out into the area. She is simply amazing and is from Massachusetts. She is so strong and despite everything she got thrown into with me, she is exactly what needed to happen for the area. I already love her so much and I am sad that I will only get to spend a short time with her! The next day my body crashed and I realized that pushing through it was not the answer but that the Lord wanted her to completely take over the area. That was a really hard pill for me to swallow. So we continued on my usual routine where I rested as much as I could and Sister Tardiff would go out into the area with one of the Battalion Sisters. It was really hard for me to watch again. The Battalion Sisters and Grandparents continue to spoil and serve me. Miracles continue to happen. I prayed to Heavenly Father to receive a confirmation during conference of what I needed to do to get better. I decided to give my all for the weekend and that we would go to the Institute to watch conference with the ward. Conference was the most amazing thing and was so comforting. I know that even though they were speaking to thousands of people throughout the world that God was specifically speaking to me during that time. He answered every single one of my questions. During Sunday morning session while President Monson was speaking about the time he was conducting at the Temple, I had an overwhelming feeling from the Spirit that I needed to come home. Sister Tardiff shortly after grabbed my knee, looked into my eyes, and nodded her head in confirmation that she felt the same thing. It was undeniable that this is what I needed to do. It is exactly the opposite of what I want to do but I feel complete peace that it will be quick and that I will be back in San Diego again! I know that the Spirit has time to personally answer each one of us and to comfort us in times of need. I don't exactly know what God's plan is for me right now but I know that He is very aware of me and is guiding me. Monday morning I finally met with the doctor and they diagnosed me with Hemiplegic Migraines. President Clayton may have already called you parents to get you on the same page but if not he will be shortly calling you sometime today! It will be really hard to explain all that the doctor said over email but patience once again and I will be talking to you on the phone soon or in person to explain more. The treatment shouldn't be too bad but it is not exactly something that can be done while serving as a full time missionary. I will not be released though when I come home either tomorrow or as soon as they can get me on an airplane. I will still be considered a full time missionary in Cedar City. Both President Clayton and I feel that this is the right thing. I feel peace but I am really sad to be leaving. My heart is in San Diego. Please keep me in your prayers and I will be with you all shortly. I love you all so much and I will see you soon. :)
Love you,
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